Hard times in Curitiba

Today was the second day of our second class, things went well for the most part. I still feel really dumb about my language skills. I get so frustrated sometimes teaching because I can't explain things well enouogh, and people must think that I'm dumb....but the thing is, I'm not its just that I dont have good enough language skills to fully explain what I want to say or make jokes, or even understand what people are saying to me all the time. Sometimes after I sit down after teaching I think to my self why am I here? Why did I bring all this upon myself, who am I kidding by comming to another country to teach in a foreign language that I havent even mastered yet? But, I just try to tell myself that eventually I'll get better at the language, and someday people wont laugh at me when I speak...but until that day things will be tough for me.

Another thing that is hard being down here is being so far away from everyone without sufficent means of communication. I wish sometimes that I could just call people like I do when I'm in provo or california, but its not a possibility, only when I'm in my office for like the hour or two a day. I was so sad to open every single email inbox today only to see messages from days earlier and no new ones. I feel like I'm falling out of touch with friends and family and there is nothing I can do because I write emails to people, and there not returning them. I understand people are busy, but so am I you know? I guess what I'm trying to say is that I feel really alone here away from everyone and it makes me want to sit down and just cry sometimes, but I'll try not to! I'm not trying to be whiny or complain, but thats just how I feel right now.

Well, I had better go, its already 7 pm and dark outside so we should probably head home. Hope all is well with everyone and that your weeks are going well, and that you have a good rest of the day.