Contemplative Day...

So today was a day of thinking, lots and lots of thinking. Thinking about where I will be a year from now, thinking about where I am in life at the moment. Thinking about how much my life has changed since I have come to college and all the little things that make me who I am today. I guess what brought this on was talking to Liesel today, and how much her life has changed for her, and that it is just what she needed to grow in ways she didnt see possible a year ago. I was thinking about the things in my life that stress me out, that make me worry, that panic me at times because I dont know what is lying ahead for me. I was thinking after I talked with someone else that everytime I think things are going the way they should everything gets turned upside-down and that nothing is ever going to work out.

Then I thought to myself, I have no explination to any one of those questions. There is no way to know where I will be in life in November of 2007. There is nothing I can do about the things and decisions people are making around me. People have their agency and can choose to do what they want. But I wish sometimes people would realize that consequences of their actions have effect on lots of people, not just themselves. And as for the things that stress me out, that make me sad, that dissapoint me, it is my choice to let them affect me that way; and I decided that I'm not going to let things affect me like that. I am doing the best I can and thats all that matters. Eventually I will understand why I have the trials I have in life; they are here to help me learn something, so I shouldnt focus on why I have them, but what I can take from them. To spare you all of listening to my petty worries, I wont list them...

Besides my thinking I went running today at the Jardim Botanico here in Curitiba with Camila, it was good or us both to get out and exercise. We both woke up not feeling so great so we didnt go into the office today, but by 3 pm we felt up to going for a run. I have a goal to come home skinner and tanner...lol, lets see how that goes. But it was a good time, I enjoyed my iPod for an hour. After that I did a bit of reading and then Camilas parents brought us dinner. It was so good, we had panquecas...not like american pancakes, but still super good...I wanna get the recipe from her mom before I go back to the states. Then we watched LOST...I love that show..it is my little break from the world every Monday night:)

So basically that was my day. I just finished drinking some diet Guarana, and so maybe i should finish this blog too. Thanks for all the time people took to talk to me today; I really needed it! I will let you know how things go tomorrow, everone have a good night!